Back to the blog and Fools day adventure!

So here I am, almost a month from my last post to my blog with so many stories built up that I might have to just let them trickle through as I pick back up on writing here once again. My friends have been harassing me about not writing to which I have been replying “I just haven’t had time.” While this is mostly true, there are other factors involved, things such as me not wanting to write in my van at night in fear of someone seeing the light of my iPad coming through which could prompt an unwelcome interaction or police involvement. While I have found that I can block the light pretty well, it’s just not worth it to run the risk. So I have vowed to myself that I will write to the blog at least once a week from this day forward, but will do so during the day.

Now that I’ve got that explanation out of the way I am going to continue with today! Today is April fools day and also the birthday of two very special robots that I have known for a few years now. They are two peaceful creatures who only get upset when either of their electronic devices break, or when there is no oil to be found. These guys are a creation of my friend Tyler, and to celebrate their birthday today we dressed up in them and took them to an Apple Store to get a giant cardboard iPhone fixed. So Tyler made an appointment for Sparky to bring his device in, and Dr. Moo came along for moral support! The humans were kind to the robots today and we did not run in to any trouble, even mall security was ok with it for a change, which we decided is due to the new mall management cutting their pay and taking away their golf-carts.

While ordering food at Subway I looked behind me and saw a woman waiting to order. She was wearing a business lady suit type outfit and I could tell she was on a lunch break, so I offered to let her ahead of me. She told me she had plenty of time but appreciated the offer, we talked a little about work and breaks, and then I told her about the adventure with Sparky and Dr. Moo today, which she thought was great on many levels and sparked a conversation about how complacent and boring people are today, and how afraid they are of things they don’t understand. At the end of all of this she left saying “have fun making people’s days better!” This made me feel really good because I think she was having a bad day, and sometimes it just takes the kind words of a stranger to turn things around.

Dr. Moo(left), Sparky(right).

I’ve also turned 31, that happened on March 25th. I was given a few awesome gifts, and a lot of good company from some people I don’t get to hang out with as often as I’d like. My friend Russell and his girlfriend Julia gave me some really colorful tie-dye tapestries which have been great, and beautiful, privacy shades. The tapestries will most likely be hanging on the outside of my van at our camping spot for Coachella, should be easy to spot. Russell also gave me a guitar case to use with my acoustic, which I have been learning quite a bit on, as well as building up finger movement and strength. Brandi, the ex I reference, got me some gifts too, a small gnome shaped candle and a pair of thrift store boots that I haven’t received yet, as well as a hand made wooden flute. Dealing with her has still been very hard and extremely emotional for me, so recently I had to tell hero couldn’t talk to her for a while, most likely till after Coachella so my head can be clear of crap at the event. I still care about her greatly and have been sad to see her dropping all her interests and hobbies to get in to this lifestyle where she isn’t doing anything productive anymore because all she does now is spend time with her rebound boyfriend who doesn’t like to do anything, and since she reflects who she is with she is now doing nothing. She’s extremely talented and it’s going to waste, I just hope to see her wake up an get back into it, not even to get back with me, but just for herself. The last gift received was created by someone who day after day is becoming one of my favorite people, even with her living not so close… And by not close I mean almost 2000 miles away. Bethany from Minnesota wanted to make me something nice, and went off of what she knows about me to create an amazing art piece. It is a portrait that is half my face, and half the face of a wolf, which are my absolute favorite animal, my spirit animal(self proclaimed). This left me starting to plan a road trip to Minnesota, because I don’t want to wait for her to come to San Diego if I can help it!

Here are the tapestries.

The gnome from Brandi.

And this is the piece from Bethany.

Van life has been great up to current, and I have been sleeping in it every night since my last post, so about a month now! I am still dealing with keeping the inside organized and haven’t had the extra money to get drawers or anything to help with that with Coachella coming up. So after Coachella I will be focusing in making the van even more livable than it already is. I find myself sleeping by the coast most nights, but when I am at a friends house late, when its time to go, I just sleep outside their place in my place!

That’s it for this post, till next time!


Four and a half years…

So after an amazing four and and a half years of enjoying one another, growing together, learning together, fighting together, loving together, and most of all becoming best friends. Which was followed by the most painful breakup I have ever been through, I have lost that best friend. We had broken up and everything was fine until I realized that everything I thought I wanted, meeting new people, random encounters, hookups, all the single life bullshit. Once this happened I came rushing back full force! I wanted her back SO badly that I tried to force it to happen which in turn pushed her further away because I was acting crazy. In doing this she got closer with her new man, which made me go crazier trying and pushing, which resulted in us not hanging out at all. During this time they grew close, and they are now with one another, as a result of my actions. Now, we can’t even hang out as friends, he won, he got her.

Looking back I am sure that if I would have just played it smooth and kept my cool that things would probably have turned out quite different, sadly that wasn’t the case. And now once again I have to live with the consequences of my actions and accept the loss of the greatest thing I’ve ever had. She has set the bar pretty high for the next one, the shoes are going to be quite hard to fill. The major lesson I get out if this is to not force anything, let thing occur naturally, if I had I feel I would be writing a very different blog post right now.

The only person she gets advice from are people that barely know me, and obviously one of them likes her outside the lines of friendship, so anything he’s said was completely one sided.

This is a little part of my life that helped to spark the van lifestyle, so there you have it, my favorite part of life so far has been these past four years. I had everything I wanted right in front of my face and I pushed it away all by myself, I can’t believe she put up with me for so long. I can only hope now that one day something shift in the world and the universe allows me a second chance with her, till then, time to fill the hole with temporary happiness.

Sorry this one isn’t van related, but I needed to let this out somewhere.

Next post will be much more adventurous!