A few good days and a lady from Minneapolis.

The last few days have been packed full of good things. First off my good friend Tony has been really working hard to lose weight, and I have been wanting to get in shape in general as well as needing a regular place to shower. So Tony and I got memberships at this place called Planet Fitness and started going there. My focus is my heart and my core while Tony’s goals are endurance and weight loss. This is good because we will keep each other going, as well as having a ton of friends that go there as well, ahem, JOEL. This will allow me to wake up with a shower and a massage every day if I want to which is great, and the showers are private so it’s not like a big steamy room of wet naked men, some people might enjoy that and I can respect that, however I am not one of them.

I got a really cool van warming gift from my friend Valerie who is turning out to be a lot of fun to hang out with. She got me this holographic art piece that contains many symbols of all the crazy shit I’m into, sacred geometry, temples and pyramids, UFOs, and much more! Now I’m just figuring out where to keep it inside the van, I’m thinking the small window next to the side door. Here is a photo of the piece!


Yesterday Valerie and I went hiking around a few areas, one sacred Indian waterfall hidden behind the Kohls in Oceanside which was absolutely beautiful, and hidden, she said she has sunbathed nude there which instantly left me trying to picture that. I couldn’t imagine hiking down there and finding an attractive nude female just laying out, I don’t even know how I’d react to that other than to be turned on and escape before I felt embarrassed. We explored around here for a bit and gathered some wild succulents for her to plant at home, drank a little and just hung out, it was really quite nice. Anyways, after that we went up to the top of Calavera Mountain in Carlsbad which not only offered up a spectacular view, but also had some really interesting rock formations that people had set up, a maze, a heart, lots of initials, and off in the distance someone had even cut “PROM?” into the grass to ask a date in an extremely romantic way, I’m sure most of the other girls boyfriends were pissed at this dude. When we got the the top the sun was about an hour from setting so we had a beer and a bowl and waited, sadly clouds came rolling in and caused it to become quite cold up there, also blocking the sunset, so we made our way back down and had to go through the rock maze since it was still light out. We made our way through the maze and to the center where we arrived feeling dizzy and laughing. We then had to go back up of course! Later on I gave her a reading with the oracle deck to which she responded very well. She told me it was incredibly insightful to where she is at in her life and where she would like to be. She also told me that the fact that my readings with these are so accurate for people means that the cards are in the right hands. I also attribute it to the person receiving the reading being receptive to it as well.




The van has been turning in to quite a home but sleeping in it is uncomfortable for the time being until I can get a mattress topper for the bed. It is a folded down bench seat with quite an uneven lumpy surface, which even covered with blankets, is still leaving my back and neck sore. However the reward of roaming free and waking up wherever I please is very much worth it, and ill be able to get a mattress topper with my check next week. My friend Tyler also wanted me to mention that my turn signal still is not working. My friend Roger seems to think it is the signal relay and is down to help me fix it, but I’ll need to find the part first. It will be fun to learn how to fix the van myself and to pick up a new mechanical skill. I also found my tapestry, which if I hang and block off the cabin will make drinking in the back legal! The beach is going to be fun this summer…

The night I took Katie around and did her card reading I went to get gas and when I got back in and started the car the ignition stuck and just kept turning! So, in an effort to look like I knew what was up I jumped out and lifted the hood as if I had any idea what to do. Meanwhile the ignition is still trying to turn and is extremely loud as well. I stood, staring into the engine and at the wires trying to see how I could pull the power and stop it. Then I had a better idea, just ask the gas station guy! I ran over go him and explained I wasn’t trying to profile him in that just because he worked there I assumed he knew cars but asked for advice, I always have to explain myself. He told me it sounded like the starter and to jump in and jiggle the keys. Really? That’s it? So I run back and jiggle the keys and all is quiet again! Engine just rumbling with all it’s V8 power, sounding nice. There are just a few things to fix, but it will be part of the adventure!

I’ve recently started talking with this girl who has really caught my attention. We connected through Instagram through a common interest in the painter Alphonse Mucha, whom which she got a piece of his tattooed on her arm. She seems to think that I am quite incredible and says a lot of very nice things to me, and in turn I find her quite intriguing and incredibly attractive. She says I fit her ideal mold in a man, and from what I can see about her I would say she’s my ideal mold of a woman. Tall with long dark hair and blue/green eyes, sharp features and an amazing body. She loves what I’m doing with my life and is very interested in what I have to say. I think she is an amazing artist and has shown me some things she has created that are absolutely breathtaking. There is only one problem, she lives in Minneapolis. So we enjoy talking through texts and chats, as well as talking about the things we will do together when she comes to visit in June. We’ve planned out many things to do between the two of us and it is something really exciting to look forward to. Who knows where that will go but if its meant to be anything, then that’s the way it will go. If not, at least is a really entertaining thought!

That’s all I’ve got for now, and I have work tomorrow. Till next time!


Meeting new people.

Today I woke up with a fresh feeling, my mind is much less cluttered with shit, and the world looks fresh again. The veil of loneliness is lifting from in front of my face and I am opening myself back up to the world! Time to spread my thoughts and ideas through music, writing, and human interactions. When I discuss my outlook on the world and people with others I feel like they tend to hang on my every word.

So far meeting new people to enjoy the company of has not been a problem. Everyone I come across seems to be very enthusiastic about what I am doing and they tend to offer up a lot of support. Yesterday for instance I went to the mineral shop to pick up a gift for a good friend, his birthday was a little while back and I couldn’t afford it at the time. His spirit animal is the mighty polar bear and when I was in the shop a few days back I had seen this marble hand carved polar bear on top of a crystal made of quartz and amethyst, with a small jade fish in its mouth.


I left the shop with my goods after a very long venting session to the very kind shop keeper, who’s name is Wendy, about what I’m going through and what I’ve been writing about here. As I neared my vehicle I realized I had forgotten to get the cards that have the different stones descriptions of what they do for you and all that. So I put the stuff in my car and went back to the shop to grab the cards. When I got back to the shop there was this woman in there who I had seen around the area before, she has a tattoo on her forehead and lives out of an RV. As I approached Wendy to ask about the cards she introduced me to the woman who’s name is Grace. She offered up a lot of good advice on living out of your vehicle, such as always be humble towards the police and just explain that you are going through hard times and are in between places. I’d like to think I’ve always respected officers of the law, I may not agree with all of the laws, but the officers are there for a reason, they aren’t the enemy. Grace also told me to watch who I associate with and not to spend time with unsavory characters, as their karma becomes yours very quickly, this should be easy because I feel like I can read people quite well, better than I’d like to be able to some times. Grace sent me off with a hug and a warm goodbye, and I went back to the coast. For anyone interested the place is in Ocean Beach, California, and is called The Philosophers Stone. Rad name.

I had bought this I had bought this little hand carved amethyst cat for Brandi to give her for her birthday. It’s supposed to bring emotional balance and increase creativity. But after our last few dialogues with one another I think I’m just going to keep it and put it on the dash of the van as a symbol of me exiting one phase of my life and entering another. She has her head so far up Sean’s asshole that she is almost living in a different reality now. There are a lot of things I got out of this relationship, and I hate to say it, but the heartbreak was one of the most important parts. Had that not happened I would not be doing what I am today, being free, making music, finding spirituality, and love myself.


While I was in Ocean Beach I got a new nose ring put back in as I lost mine making out with a girl at an EDM event. It was quite an exciting night, I’ve never just had a random encounter like this before where a girl approached me to dance and make out. Of course we were in altered mind sets there were a lot of things going around that party. We had some pictures taken and danced for hours having a great time. Texted back and forth a few times and then that was the end of Allison. I’ve always heard that’s how it usually goes with a rave hook-up so I had expected it, but it was an enjoyable experience! This was about two weeks ago, so my nose had closed up a bit so the piercer at Apogee in OB had to push through a post to open it back up. The hoop I chose was rather small and the poor guy struggled to get the ball on the captive hoop. His name was Luis, and he apologized over and over for making it hurt, I told him it was ok because I really didn’t mind as that is part of the process! Next thing body art wise will be a tattoo of some portrayal of the number 22 as it has been a significant number in the past few years of my life and has always kinda been my lucky number that I can recall. Any suggestions from anyone who happens thread this are welcome!

I also picked up what is called an “Oracle Deck” today at the mineral shop, it’s like a tarot deck but its more accurate from what I’ve seen already. It first called my attention because this set I particular is based around sacred geometry which I have become increasing fascinated with. Last night my friend Katie and I first tried out the deck and started with me. My reading was insanely accurate, it talked about the changes I am going through, and how I needed to be free and do something different. It talked about me exploring spirituality and what steps to take on that path, as well as the things I need to do in order for me to maintain a healthy emotional balance. Katie also said that her reading was able to play into her life quite well for where she is at. It was quite a good night filled with card readings and conversation by candle light. The flame of a single candle is perfect for the night time in the van, it would be barely noticeable from the outside if at all, and the flame of a candle is quite calming. I also did a reading for my friend tony, and the cards were even reflecting our current conversation which was about me wanting to help him get in touch with his spiritual side again, and wanting to help him find ways to be happy that don’t involve drugs and partying. Each card we drew was saying almost exactly what I said to him. I want to do readings for everyone I know now to see how they come out! Here is a photo of the first reading.


This quest for knowledge, art, spirit, and love is going to be an exciting part of my life, and I’m happy to share it with the world.